This is me!

So, here we are months later and I am back to write another blog. I suppose the blog is a good place to get some things off my chest and tell you all (if there is anyone out there actually reading this)...how life is :)

Things are always a bit crazy for me....

I guess my biggest issues in life though are the issues I have the hardest time telling people about...
money, politics, religion etc....
I've decided that I definitely want a career in Political Science and I also want to be a linguist or a translator. I want to teach people about the issues in our world, aside from what they all might "think". Its hard to talk to people on the touchy subjects in politics and religion. I want to be able to communicate with people I disagree with, without sounding like I am attacking them or trying to change their minds or ideas.
So, this fall when I start back up in school, I will be taking; political science, communications and Spanish! Yah! Im excited! Cant wait!
I love family, but sometimes, I feel like I live far from them because I dont want dislike them because of their views...so I am taking some drastic measures in the communication department! I just wish others would do the same...I feel like we would have a lot more mentally stable society if we all had to take a communications class in high school...Anyhow, I promised myself that I am going to start blogging more...I want people to know how I feel about life (especially family) but do not want them to love me any less because of the way I see things, so if I ease my way into this...I will hopefully get across to them in the nicest possible way and help them open their minds up to a differnt way of acceptance.

Peace,
Ames

Only one title.....VOTE!

So, there is only one month left until the biggest election in history. I find myself swaying back and forth from complete confidence to some moments when I feel a little nervous. I have kept myself in the the politics loop for about 3 years now. I have a clear vision of who will do right by this country and who will completely sink us. The problem is, that so many people that I love do not believe in the same thing as me. I find myself having to be tolerant of their choices and its become very hard for me because for some reason I do not feel people are wholeheartedly using there brains and hearts. Some of the questions that people have about Obama and McCain are questions that could have been answered had they done a little research (and I am not talking about FOX or CBS or NBC NEWS (propaganda). I'm talking REAL research and knowing what your local politicians are doing, what the senate has been doing for 8 years. It seems that people (mostly from Idaho and Utah...and the Midwest of course) have built themselves on tradition and I feel a little sick about it. I'm not talking about traditional family stuff like taking your husbands last name, I'm talking about VOTING! I cant say that I don't understand why they choose the choices they make because I do...People are so set in their ways that out of tradition and habit they will always vote republican (or democrat for that matter) just because the people around them are of that party or because they "think" they know what that party represents. I also believe unfortunately that most people are out of touch with what is really happening in the world. For instance, the last 8 years of administration and how they have performed (if you think anything good came out of it, your smokin some serious canola). The people who think they did a good job or the people who think they didnt do so bad are the people I see as being out of touch. I am a direct product of what has happened in the past eight years... So what does a young American do after that? We work, we live and we go on with life, right? Lorne and I have struggled a lot in our lives (like many other Americans). At times we have even had to go on public assistance (which was very hard to get on) because the job market was so poor or the wages we were being paid were too low to even live. Usually in that case we just pack up and leave to a new place for new work. But it was never as easy as it sounds.
Why is it that us as Americans are constantly struggling to stay afloat? Is it because we make bad decisions along the way to get us into these situations? Is it because that is just life? No, its because for decades we have been shoveled this bull-shit about spending our money. And the rich keep getting richer, the poor really are getting more poor. Well, all my life I have been told about the "American Dream." What is the American Dream? Marriage, kids, house etc...right? Well, it was for people where I am from that was the American Dream. But because we have such a diverse culture the American Dream has surely evolved. Since we are a nation BUILT on immigration (which some say has also put us in this situation) we have opened our doors to a world of different dreams. That is all in all the American Dream...the fact that you can have your own dream. But are we able to really live our dreams? This nation is called the UNITED STATES of America yet we are a nation torn and divided. Its not okay to want to live your American Dream...Only the one that has been in place here amongst "white America". If you plan to live another dream....plan on being cast aside and gouged by your counter culture. We have built ourselves an empire of broken dreams and huge let downs....That 30% in taxes you have been paying out of your paycheck each week has been going to an endless consumption of things that you could not even wrap your head around and because this nation is so divided your probably paying for things that you would probably detest if you were asked. Yet most Americans refuse to educate themselves on the American Policy and where there money is going. They just trust that their state representatives are doing their jobs. Its finally caught up to us...and for those who cannot see that if we do not change the habits and traditional voting of Americans then we are screwed...It might not be tomorrow or next year or even 4 years from now but we are slowly killing the "American Dream". For once I just wish Americans could be selfless...Think about everyone's dreams...stop letting the "propaganda clog your brain" open your mind up to reality and educate yourself further....
I'm not going to say anything about the politicians that are currently running except that I'm am so sick of the way things are going, I would never put someone in office that didn't have the best interest of Americans AND the rest of the world too (because we are not more important)...But how can we choose who to run this country when this country is so divided? YOU ELECT A PRESIDENT WHO IS DIPLOMATIC AND BIPARTISIAN IN HIS HEART....Not someone who's best interest is in Corporate America and OIL and Traditional Policies!!

My MYSPACE blog update

So, its been a long time since I have sat down and done any kind of "blogging" because I am not usually a blogger but I figure some people....some.....may be wondering what happened to me...seems how I never keep in touch...
July 7th, Lorne and I decided to quit our job at the storage company and decided to take a little time off. So we took a trip to Idaho, not really putting to much of a plan together because we had two family reunions to attend while we were there and one of them was 3 days and the other one was 4 days. We didnt really get to visit again as much as we'd like to. Lorne and I spent a lot of time in Parma helping out his step- Mom out around the house mostly. All the timing was good and bad...I have a friend of the family that has been missing in Idaho City since December so I helped out with the search for him, trying not to to get involved because I am so out of the loop but trying to help his family out as much as possible. We also decided to take a road trip with some friends that was completely spur of the moment and out of character for both Lorne and I. They said they were going over to the Oregon Coast and down to the California Redwoods. After some finessing of child care and dealing with the separation anxiety of being away from my kids for the first time (and talking Lorne into it), we decided to just do it...
Never made a better spontanious decision in our lives. We had so much fun. We got to go with our best buddies from Idaho, Jake and Robin. Some would.....no actually, most would, think that it would be virtually impossible to enjoy your time with friends for 5 days but there was never a dull moment. We laughed all the time, so much in fact that my ribs often hurt. I have always wanted a road trip like that one and we have managed to accomplish it. (Thanks Guys!)
Unfortunately on our 3 week trip having family reunions, road trips and visiting some of the people in our family we missed a lot of people.
Which is one reason we quit our jobs, so that we can have more time to travel back to visit friends and family more often then we did. For everyone we didnt get to visit or our visit was just short, we are sorry and hopefully you can come see us or we will be back up soon to visit again!

Cheers!
Amy

So this is becoming so trendy that I cant help but keep up

Man, I said that I would be a bad blogger from the beginning...I am so bad at keeping in touch, but I think I should do it way more often. I really enjoy reading other peoples blogs, especially if they update it all the time. I find myself constantly reading my sister in law Stacie's page. We live pretty far away from each other but yet I get a small insight to their daily life. And now my friend Beaux, who has known me since I was born is blogging...I never get to see these people that I love and now they are giving me a little bit of them. So in all actuality I kind of owe it to everyone...

Here is kind of a brief update on whats happening in my life right now...
About 3 weeks ago, when our journey to find an apartment in San Diego failed horribly, we were on the brink of deciding to go back to Idaho with our tails between our legs. My brother Steven calls me from Kuwait and says "go live in my house up in Oceanside". The background on the house is well....his girlfriend and him decided to buy it about a week before deploying on their second tour of duty. So as he was leaving he asks me to be his power of attorney and sign the papers on this house for him (didnt even know that was possible)...so after a month of paperwork that was 6 inches thick he was finally a co-homeowner. I just figured they would want us to check on it every once in awhile to make sure things were good there...
So we moved in right away. The house is really cute, perfect for them. Updated in 2005 and still has a few things that need worked on but just enough to keep my brother and Lorne busy....My little brother and his girlfriend are in the same battalion but they are on different ships and will be coming home in 33 days! We havent seen him in over 6 months so we are soosooo excited. Steven is the most kind generous soul you could ever meet on this planet. Which brings me to my next point. I really love my siblings. All of them, they are really great people and I could not have been given a better family. They all treat me with so much respect and I miss them so much it hurts. My cousins too, I dont have many cousins in fact on my mothers side I only have two girls. They are pretty awesome girls to. We all grew up in such a different setting yet I find myself relating to everything they do and I notice that we are so much a like. Family is so important, I almost think its the single most important thing (below the air that I breath) that is in my life. I never thought I would feel this way because we were not a "close knit" family if you will. We did not grow up with loving relationships, in fact there was TONS of distance. But, every opportunity I got, I tried keeping my bases touched, I tried to be the sister and cousin that didnt disappear out of everyone's lives (although at many times in my life I wanted to). Once I grew up and had kids of my own and realized how important family really is.

Mid July already!

Is it me or is time flying by faster than ever. Just a minute ago it was January.
We went to Idaho over the 4th of July weekend. We got to see almost everyone! Its been too long. I hate what the gaps of time do. My father is gray and my baby brother is 6'2". The last time I hung out with my baby brother was when he was as tall as my boob. What the?
Whats really a trip is seeing Lorne's baby sister having 2 kids and taking photos of Ryan and Lorne's daughters together. Because just the other day, Stacie was 16 and Jamie was a moody teenager. Its amazing but when your in the moment you never see it happening. I was about 25 pounds more than I weighed this trip and I only hardly notice, people made big deals of it as if I were "half the person".
I have also come to the conclusion that I really LOVE taking pictures. I took so many pictures on this trip. I even got my grandpa, someone I see in a whole new way today even though he is still the same grandpa he has always been.
I was reading some old diary entries yesterday from back in 1997. I have the same handwriting, although life is a little less dramatic, its still the same.........

Sad Sad world

I found my self crying today over the story of Jessie Davis. I cannot believe that someone could be so sick. I have come to the conclusion that most people are crazy. My sorrow is for the family and especially the baby boy. How could someone just leave him? How could someone take a life...two for that matter. The baby was due in 2 weeks....And some sick fuck...I wont even grant justice to the topic by going into detail about it...I am just sad today. I am sick to my stomach.
Another sicko like Scott Peterson. How do these people slip through the cracks?

My wish is for peace and love in the hearts of all of Jessie's family. You're all in our prayers and thoughts. I am so sorry that you have to grieve over this when you should be celebrating the birth of Chloe. I hope that her little boy never hears the gruesome details of his mothers death and I hope that the man or women who did this he burns in hell and is handed a life of agony for their choices.

AAAHHH!

Well, here we are again. Can you believe it? My 3rd Blog and I am already neglecting it. As if people actually read this.....

I have a really hard time with repitition. I have never been one to excersize consistanly, take pills or vitamins regularly, or commit to anything that isnt human.